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I wash myself in powdered diamonds.  It's the only way to be beautifully clean.  I'd let you try it but your hands look dirty and I don't want them near me.  My powdered diamond bath is the only way to be clean.  I don't even know what you bathe in but it's unacceptable and doesn't suit me.  I love my powdered diamond bath, I want nothing except this.  I don't even go out, I never leave my house, I stay away from the filth that I perceive outside.  I soak myself some more.  I've grown so attached to my powdered diamond bath that I hardly leave the tub anymore.  I tire of the other people who don't bathe in powdered diamond baths like me.  I can smell them from the outside, see the build up of disgust on their skin.  I breath in my powdered diamond bath, let it fill up my lungs.  I dip my eyes into the powdered diamond bath and let myself see only the clean white I can see.  I let myself drown away, drown away from everyone...

You found me, you were stunned by my beauty. You wanted me for yourself, you wanted me all the time. You picked me out, out from my home. You cut off my legs, trimmed my skin. You dressed me up to compliment you living space. You put me in something nice and shiny, something to show me off. You fed me just enough to barely stay alive. You removed me from the sun, from the world I lived. You took me away from all that made me what you loved. Now I am starting decay, my blood is draining out. My skin has started to fall apart and drift around this ornament you showcase me. I no longer reflect the beauty you once saw, no longer compliment your life. So you toss me away. Just as beautiful as a flower.

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How dark is the sky that you find the brightest star? How deep do you look to find the tallest tree? How long do you search for quick satisfaction? How long do you starve to taste the freshest fruit? How many days do you stay awake to dream a wonderful night's sleep? How long do you hurt to find the love that saves you? Surrounded by only the things that bring pleasure to the senses yet from the freshest manure grows the most beautiful rose.

I miss not having an objective. To do simply to do and not have an expectation of an end. I feel everything I do now has a purpose, a point to the action.  I need to start doing just because soon. How about now? Chocolate feet duck squall phantom particles of expression potatoes tomatoes people toes.  Floral memories, unrequited chairs, the taste of your touch.  Simple complexes, tall invisibles, fluttering puttering. Silly fun for everyone.

I love you so much.  I dedicate myself to us. You and me, let's always be this way. I would take the world away, it only needs to be the two of us. Everyone else can run and hide, I need no one but you. Let the world destroy each other as long as I have you by my side. You and I can run away, live amongst nature, I need only you. Your love you share gives me the breath to survive. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You love me so much. I dedicate myself to our love. You make me feel so warm inside, let's always be this way. I want to show the world this love, share it with everyone. You give me strength to help others love the ones they love as well. We can help the world, show it the love they can have. If they would all just love like us, perhaps we can make it a better place. Your love you share gives me the breath to heal.

The gravity of my anger keeps that which enrages me in my orbit. I need to let it all go to free me from these rings.

It's just words... Little letters smooshed together to make a sound. They should bounce off my ears and let me know what you mean. They should disappear within seconds.  They should communicate your thoughts and be on their way. Let room for the next sound to tell me what they want and where they've been. That's just science. Yet it resonates within me like an echoing disease. Clinching onto my soul with it's audible claws. It sounds stronger, worse, so loud at each reveberence.  It's original motive lost in my twisted cavern of memory. It paints every other sound with it's dark color. It wrenches at my being almost scientifically. It's just a bunch of letters smooshed together to make a sound. And it's killing me.