They say I'm a clown

I'm an actor, I act every day. I put a smile on my face and never let you know the truth. Why do I do it? Why do you say that I pretend to be fake? To entertain you, to make you enjoy life. I try to make you smile when everything tells you to gloom. I try to make you jump when everything pulls you down. I pretend it'll be alright, I'll pretend that it's for the best, I'll pretend that everything is great. I would control the world if I could, bend it to my will. I would make me not a liar, make it all ok if I could.  Yet I am only an actor, and sometimes when the world turns the right way I become a profet, enduring the worst to come ahead knowing everything would be ok. Yet most of the time I am a fool, wrong to be so hopefully silly that it will end up ok. So whether I'm right or whether I am wrong, a fool I may be to those in the world but if I have made you laugh, kept you comfort when the world would not, then a fool I may be for many days to come.

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