Needle in the heart

The moment I met you I knew the next would be different. You took my breath away. But I'm no fool, don't let the scars make you think otherwise. My glance is cheap, my breath is kind, my mind is grounded, but you seem like a lovely person. As I get closer to you I want you to do the same. Get closer to me. I'll let you in. You've made me different, I'll let you tattoo your name on my heart.
Now you're the world to me. My blood pumps for you. My breath has you in its thoughts and my dreams wake with you in mind. My world has changed and so have I. You're kind to me, you're kind to all. Lovely at all means.
My heart beats when you're near. It softens when you're gone. My heart has grown like I have never known. And it raced, feverishly beat the pounding blood into my veins. Beat loudly when you brought him into our home. My heart scarred with your name. I knew that moment that nothing would be the same.
Now you're gone and I'm around. People think you're a lovely person, you're kind to all, like nothing has changed. I see the world in a different light, look at things through my eyes and my heart. It all seems new, it all shines bright. Yet my heart is scarred, scribbled on by someone who didn't care. I see the world different, cautious about who holds the pen. Cautious to let someone else in. I can't help see the world a little askew. Maybe nothing has changed, maybe it's all the tattoos. But I'm fine, don't let the scars fool you.

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